Sunday, March 15, 2009

An Incomplete Love Story


mere cousin ka reliance ka mobile kharab ho gaya tha...mai use lekar Nagpur gaya...reliance k web world me...subah ki baat hai...9 baje mai waha pahucha...to waha k ek ladke ne kaha ki jo is kam ko dekhti hai abhi aayi nhi...maine kaha mai intejar karta hu...fir aadhe ghante baad aayi...ek sawli bt beautiful ladki...simple outfit..jeans n shirt...ghungarale baal..kandho pe khelte huye...aakho me gajab ka confidence aur hoto pr bahut hi pyari muskan...uff mai to palbhar k liye palke jhapkana tk bhul gaya tha...

khair wo mujhse boli...excuse me..! Aap mera intejar kar rahe the...kano me jaise mithas ghul gayi...itni mithi aur sexy awaz...? Apne dhadakte dil pe kabu pate huye maine apni problem batayi....Oh..dnt worry..lemme try..if i cn do sumthng..! Uske in shabdo se mai hosh me aaya...maine kya bataya mujhe malum hi nhi tha...jaise mai kisi khwab me baate kr raha tha...kuch jagah phone karne k baad usne bataya ki jis company ka ye mobile hai uska service center sirf Delhi aur Mumbai me hai...kuch din lag sakte hai phone wapis aane me...usne apna mobile no mujhe dekar jane ko kaha...hawa me udta hua mai ghar kb pahucha pata nhi...dusare din subah hi maine use phone karne ki bajay sms kr diya...nd wot a surprise...? Reply b aa gaya..fir chalu hua sms ka silsila...jisme hum logo ne duniya bhar k sms ek dusre ko bheje..apni poems mai bhejta tha., uski poems wo bhejti thi..aaj b mere aur uske paas wo diaries hai jinme humne ek dusre ki kawitaye likh rakhi hai...

Fir wo Nagpur se achanak Dehli chali gayi job k silsile me...waha b use Reliance me hi kam mila...pr wo roj phone par mujhse ghanto bate karti thi...hum phone pe haste, gate, khilkhilate, aur rote bhi....humari dosti ab sirf ek ladka ladki ki dosti nhi rahi thi balki ab wo ek pure relation ban gayi thi...ek aisa relation jisme koi apne khas se kuch nhi chhupata...hum har baat share karte...har baat...chahe wo sukh ki ho ya dukh ki..achhi ho ya buri...pr ek dusre k bina hume kuch nhi sujhta tha...mere aur uske gharwalo ko pata tha ki ye dono kafi close frnds hai...jab ki hakikat me hum sirf 2 baar mile the aur wo bhi wahi reliance web world me...dost meri hasi udate ki kaise kisise aise phone pe dosti ho sakti hai...aur agar ho b sakti hai to itni gaheri dosti...? Impossible..fir wo din aaya jb humari dosti shuru hone k ek saal baad hum pehli baar kahi bahar milne wale the...(do baar mile the pr wo reliance web world me mile the aur wo b mobile k repairing k bare me)...

Wo 26 jan ka din tha...mai bike se Wardha se Nagpur gaya use railway stn pe recieve krne....such mano to kafi exited tha...parking me apni discover lagai...andar gaya...dil dhad dhad baj raha tha...kahi train aakar nikal to nhi gayi..?.kahi wo mera intejar karke nikal to nhi gayi.?..pr shayad mera bhagwan mujhpe khush tha...mai andar pahucha aur train aa gayi...jaise hi wo train se utari.,..uff...us din koi meri halat dekhta...dil ki dhadkane itni tej thi ki mano dil pasliyo ko todkar bahar nikalne ko betab tha...betab tha uske kadmo me bichh jane ko.,..meri najar se to train se utarne wali sabse khubsurat ladki wo thi...bilkul Madhuri Dixit lag rahi thi...najar padte hi hum ek dusre ki or lapke...pata nhi par kaise...badi mushkil se hum rok paye ek dusre se lipatne ko...kuch samay ki shantata pr fir b humari aankhe baate kr rahi thi aapas me...kuch keh rahi thi...aur wo sirf dil samajh rahe the...

Station se bahar nikale...parking se gadi nikali...pata nhi hosh me tha ya madhosh...pr no entry se gadi dal di...police ne pakad liya...sir mundate hi ole padne ka mtlb us din samajh me aaya...khair police ko apna licence dekar jaan chhudayi...aur uske ghar k raste pe chal nikle...pure raste mai sirf listener bana raha...wo bolti gayi...bolti gayi mano ek din me pure saal ki baate batana chahti ho...pata hi nhi chala uska ghar kb aaya...fir uske mummy papa aur pariwar...kafi khush ho gaye the wo log...pr meri khushi ka to koi thikana hi nhi tha...us raat uske ghar me mai so bhi na saka...fir ek nayi subah aayi...aur wo pura din humne ek dusre k sath bitaya...din to dhal gaya...pr kabhi na bhulne wali yaade dekar...mai apne ghar laut aaya...kuch khokar...bahut kuch pakar...wo kya tha jo maine khoya tha..wo kya tha jo maine paya tha...shabdo me bayaan nhi kar sakta...kabhi kabhi shabd bhi bewafa ban jate hai....

Wo wapas Delhi chali gayi...silsila fir shuru hua..sms ka phone calls ka....ek baat batana mai bhul gaya....wo roj phone pr mujhse I LOVE YOU kehti thi...pr kabhi maine nhi kaha...pata nhi kyo... Meri fitrat b dekho kaisi ajeeb hai jo kehna chahta hu wo keh nhi pata...aur jo kehna nhi chahta wo muh se nikal jata hai....mere ek dost ki behan thi...divorcee thi...us dost ne apni behan ki khushiya mangi mujhse.,..mana nhi kr saka....apne kuch faisle mai khud leta hu...aise hi maine ek bahut bada faisla khud le liya...apni shadi ka...ek din ghar me eilan kar diya ki mai ek divorcee se shadi karunga...gharwale sakte me aa gaye...samjhane ki bahut koshish ki mujhe pr mera faisla atal tha...use din phone pe maine use mere faisle k bare me bata diya...phone par hasti khilkhilati awaz ekdum se band...pure 3 minutes tak wo kuch b nhi boli...fir achanak rona chalu kr diya...rote rote usne jo bataya...use sun k mai pagal ho utha...dil me aaya ki jakar wo wada tod du jo maine apne dost ko diya hai.

Tod du wo sankalp jo maine liya tha...kisi besahara ka ghar basane ka...jo mere bina ji nhi sakti use lekar chala jau kahi dur...bahut dur...jaha koi na aaye humare bich...pr kya insan jo soche wo hota hai? Shayad nhi isiliye to insan bhagwan ko manta hai...meri us bhul ne usko kahi ka na chhoda...mai badnasib yahi samajhta raha ki jo mai apne dil me mahsus kr raha hu wo sirf mera pyar hai...mera ektarfa pyar..aur jo I LOVE U wo kehti hai wo ek dost k liye hai....bus yahi galati ho gayi meri...mai apne dil ki baat keh na paya use....aur wo kehti thi use samajh na paya...meri shadi me b wo aayi ...mere sath sath rahi...usne apne hatho se mujhe mehandi lagai, apne hathose haldi lagai,...aur hum khub roye b...aaj meri wife ko ye sub bate pata hai...pr wo itna janti hai ki humare dil me paap nhi hai...na mai uske baare me kuch galat soch sakta hu...wo aaj b meri best frnd hai aur rahegi..aaj mai apne family me khush hu..jaise wo bhi hai....shyad....mai bahut khushkismat hu....bahut Khushkismat...ki wo mujhe mili....

Saturday, March 14, 2009

YAAD


Raat k 2 baj rahe hai... Mai apne pump k rum me bed pe leta hua hu...aaj dhulendi hai...dil me ek yaad apne bibi bachho ki...mujhe yaad hai wo din...pichhle sal ka..us din b holi ki dhulendi thi...meri shadi k baad pehli holi...mai un yado me khoya huwa hu...kya khub holi khela tha mai apni bibi aur bachhe k sath...pure navoday k campus me holi chal rahi thi...school k bachhe masti k sath ek dusre k uper rang daal rahe the..hum pati patni b apne bachhe k sath holi khelne bahar nikal aaye...khub rang udaya..gulal ka to mano badal chha gaya tha campus me...mera beta Anshul kafi smart hai...usne auro ko rang lagane se pehle hum dono k charan sparsh kiye aur fir hum dono ko gulal lagaya...aur fir pata nhi us nanhe shaitan ko achanak kya sujha...hume kaha ki ab aap ek dusre ko gulal lagao...hehe...kya sharma gayi thi vinu us din jaise kal hi humari shadi hui ho...us din ki ek ek yaad dil me basi hai...aaj b holi hai...pr mai akela hu...apne parivar se sekdo miles dur...dil me ek tis si uth rahi hai...kyo mere sath aisa hua...? Kyo bhagwan ne ek hath se khushiya dekar dusre hath se chhin li...? Apni 2 mahino ki bachhi ko chhodke kyo yaha pada hu mai...akela...bilkul akela...dil ro raha hai...aansu palko k kinare pe aake ruke huye hai....jaise bahar nikalne ko betab...rona chahta hu...pr...pr...kisika kandha nhi hai mere pass rone k liye...kisi k hath nhi hai un aasuo ko puchne k liye jo betab hai bahar nikalne ko...akela...bilkul akela mehsus kar raha hu mai...rone ko bahut dil kr raha hai...bahut...pr....fir yaad aata hai...mard ko kabhi dard nhi hota...mard kabhi roya nhi karte...koun kehta hai mard ko dard nhi hota..? Koun kehta hai mard kabhi roya nhi karte...? Dekh lo mai ro raha hu...un lamho ko yaad krke jo pichhle saal maine apne family k sath gujare the...mai ro raha hu...apne bete ko yaad karke jo kabhi mere bagair khana nahi khata tha..mai ro raha hu apni beti ko yaad krke jise mai 15 din ki chhodke yaha aaya tha...mai ro raha hu...sachhi...mai ro raha hu.....